Tuesday, June 26, 2012

one meal at a time

I'd like to say that the overeating has stopped, but it hasn't.  However, I've eaten a healthy breakfast and lunch the past two days and I've been taking my vitamins.  This may seem like a small accomplishment, but sometimes we have to celebrate the small successes.

I think I'm beginning to finally realize that the continuous diet-for-a-few-days/weeks/months/years-then-binge-for-a-few-days-months-years cycle that I've been in for at least twenty years is not just about my weight.  Yes, I probably knew that on some level but I think I need to explore that more.  Excess weight is simply a by-product of some internal work that I need to do.

It's mostly been about the weight for me.   Sure, I've examined some things over the years but it's always ultimately been about the weight.  If I'm honest with myself, if the disease of food addiction didn't lead to obesity I would probably give up and live with the other side effects.  It's not just about weight, though.

For now, I'm celebrating a few days of eating two healthy meals each day and taking the vitamins that I need.  I'm also celebrating the fact that I've continued to go to a support group.

Sometimes slow progress is lasting progress.

1 comment:

  1. Amen to that. The ONLY reason I can stay abstinent from food abuse during this horrible time in my life with the death of my mom is because of what I have learned through SLOW progress. It truly has given me the lasting strength to get through this one day at a time.