I feel like I'm in limbo right now. I'm not actively trying to lose weight, though I definitely need to be. The binges have slowed a bit, but haven't ended. I haven't been exercising.
All of my choices aren't poor. About 98% of the time I've been eating a healthy breakfast and lunch and I'm taking the vitamins that I need. I haven't withdrawn from family and friends like I tend to do when I'm overeating on a regular basis.
At this point, I think I'd be content if I could at least maintain my weight rather than continuing to gain. I haven't posted my weight progress because I'm too ashamed to admit how much weight I've gained.
I still haven't completely given up. To someone who doesn't understand food addiction/eating disorders it would appear that I have, but I haven't. I've had a lot of experience in the past with days, weeks, months, even years of being in the "I don't care I'm going to eat what I want and I'll deal with the results later" phase. I'm not there.
I need to find the motivation to get out of this part of the cycle and get back to a healthy place. If I can't find the motivation, I need to find the determination to be healthy.