Dear Diary,
Last year when I'd lost 100+ pounds, I didn't fully appreciate the benefits. I was still overweight, but I felt far more comfortable in my own skin. I could climb a flight of steps without getting winded. I could go into any clothing shop that carried plus sizes and purchase something off the rack rather than having to order things online. I could even wear some things in xl or xxl from certain clothing companies. I wasn't worried that I wouldn't fit comfortably in a movie theater seat. I felt somewhat normal.
Now that I've gained back a significant amount of that, I miss those things. I miss looking into the mirror and being able to find my cheekbones. I miss looking into the mirror and realizing that I looked pretty good! Now I'm avoiding mirrors again. I miss being confidant when I run into an old friend; now I would probably try to avoid them.
I shouldn't let these things lead me into a cycle of despair, depression and more overeating. These should be motivation to get back on track and make healthy choices physically and emotionally.
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