Tuesday, October 23, 2012

Back to Step 1

Dear Diary,

Around mid-day the cravings began.  I'd been binge free for 10 days, and hadn't really had too many cravings to speak of.  They seemed to come out of the blue.  Maybe there was a reason, but I haven't figured it out.  I still don't know if it's important to determine a reason or if it's ultimately irrelevant.

I texted a friend from my support group, thinking that would help.  When I left work, I should have called someone, but I didn't.  I chose to stop at the grocery store and buy binge foods.  I sat in the parking lot and ate.  I ate all the way home.  Then I began to feel sick.  I made one good choice - I threw the rest of the food away, which was about 3/4 of what I'd purchased.

I'm back to step 1, but still on the path to wellness.  Still fighting.  Still aware that there are other choices when issues arise.


  1. I've been to step one so many times I thought I would never see the top of the staircase.

    Don't let this get you done. Certainly REMEMBER it. It is by the memories of these times that we learn not to return here again and again.

  2. Sometimes you just have to keep starting over. But never give up because that new start may be the one that really gets you going.

  3. Don't give up!!!!! don"t let 1 day turn into 2 or 3or4.............keep going, at least you threw the rest of the food away,I havea hard time doing that then I set my-self up for another binge. NEVER GIVE UP

  4. Thanks so much for the encouragement. I can't begin to tell you how much I appreciate it. I'm ashamed to admit that I binged again today. I'm not giving up, though.

  5. Don't be ashamed and don't give up!I am finding it hard not to binge every day......I do so good all day then binge after supper......just keep going and trying,,,,one of these days something will click.