Once again I ate some things tonight that I shouldn't have. It wasn't a full blown binge, but I wasn't hungry and I should have left food alone. I guess it began earlier today when I began craving Reese cups. I can't remember what prompted the cravings.....I think it was something simple like an ad in a sale circular. I had forgotten about the Reese cups and moved on. I ate my on plan dinner and exercised as usual. As I was settling down for the evening, the urge to eat came back. It had nothing to do with hunger, so what was it related to? Perhaps loneliness?
There was a little bit of peanut butter left in a jar that I bought for my daughter. Notice a trend here? Apparently I'll need to ban peanut butter from the house; at least for a while. I ate a peanut butter and jelly sandwich on whole wheat. Lots of peanut butter on the bread, and a few extra spoonfuls of peanut butter. Then I ate some peanuts and chex mix. Not too much; maybe a 1/2 cup full. Then I ate a "salad". The quotes are due to the fact that I'm using the word very loosely. A little bit of lettuce, a ton of cheese quite a few croutons, and a large amount of dressing. (It was fat free though.)
I don't like this trend. The last time I did this was on the 23rd. Only 5 days ago. I shouldn't have eaten this stuff. There was no real reason to do so. Why did I? There were so many things I could have done. My son is home....I could have told him that I was struggling. I could have prayed. I could have read some of my past posts to remind myself of how I feel after I eat junk for something other than hunger.
Sometimes I get so frustrated and angry with this.