I'm doing better now. Once I changed my self talk to be more positive, the cravings lessened quite a bit.
I had a lot of fun with my daughter today. We went to a thrift store, and I got a few fun things. I probably don't go to the thrift store as often as I should - you can really find some great deals! I got a Fossil purse for $2!!! It still had the tag on it!!! I also purchased a pair of jeans. This may sound boring, but it's a big deal for me. I don't feel like jeans flatter me at all, at least not at my highest weight. Even at this weight, I don't love how they look. However, I was shocked to find my size (finding a size that's on the larger end of plus sizes and is a petite length is challenging in retail stores. At a thrift shop it's almost impossible) They are a really nice dark wash too.
The look on my daughter's face when I asked her opinion made me instantly decide to buy the jeans. "Mom, I've never seen you wear jeans! They look great!" That made me sad. She doesn't remember that I often wore jeans when she was a baby, and she doesn't remember that I wore them all the time when I lost a tremendous amount of weight and spent a year or two at a normal weight when she was around 5 or 6. I hope that there will come a time when I'm comfortable in most any style.
Thanks, Lorena (http://myeverydaywear.blogspot.com/) for the thrift store recommendation! I think that will become a smart option for buying clothes while I'm losing weight.