Saturday, January 28, 2012

Fierce determination

This week I've made poor choices.  I've eaten a lot of junk and I haven't exercised.  After days of doing this, I've finally reached the point where I truly want to get back on track.  I want to get back into my healthy routine.  I don't feel good, I have no energy, my skin is reacting with more acne breakouts....ugh.

If you don't struggle with binge eating/compulsive overeating, I'm sure it's hard to understand how someone can repeat the same behaviors over and over again while receiving little to no incentive for doing so.  Weight loss and maintenance is simple.  Eat healthy and exercise.  However, it's not easy.  If it were, then everyone would be skinny and the weight loss industry would be non-existant.  Combine low self esteem, anxiety/depression, the addictive quality of sugar/fat/salt, and  easy access to such foods and you have the perfect binge eating disorder cocktail.

Even when I'm not motivated to get out of the pit, I need to be determined.  Fiercely determined to overcome.  Failure isn't's not getting back up.  Today, this very minute, I choose to get back up.


  1. Melanie - This is my story: Addiction, recovery, relapse, repeat, resolve. I so identify with that feeling of finally, finally, finally reaching the point where I am willing to go to any lengths to not binge. The only reason I am maintaining a 220 pounds weight loss it that I keep getting up.

    Keep getting up Melanie.

  2. Thanks Jane. I can't tell you how much your encouragement means to me, especially right now. Today has been good, and I've been back on track. However, it's already crossed my mind that I could buy binge food after work tomorrow. I just don't understand how the desire to eat can outweigh all of the benefits of eating healthy sometimes. I'm taking this one day at a time.