addiction: the state of being enslaved to a habit or practice or something that is psychologically or physically habit-forming, as narcotics, to such an extent that its cessation causes severe trauma.
Is it possible to be addicted to food? Or perhaps specific things like sugar, salt and/or fat? I definitely feel enslaved to food, and I hate that. I do feel that it is both psychologically and physically habit forming. Does cessation of sugar/salt/fat cause severe trauma? Hmmm....it sure feels that way sometimes.
I'm still having trouble getting back on track. I'll stick with healthy eating and exercise for a day or two, then overeat for a day or two. I don't want to binge. I don't want to continue gaining back the weight I've lost. I want this to be the last time I lose weight. I want to be healthy. Despite all of this, I still sabotage my efforts? Why do I do this?
Regardless of whether compulsive behavior and/or addiction plays a part, I still take full responsibility for my actions and choices.
I've hit a rough patch, but I refuse to give up. I saw a great quote recently. "Failure isn't what happens when you fall, it's what happens if you don't get back up." I am getting back up.
I have the same burning question, "How can I want to get this weight off so badly and then do the very things to keep it from happening?" I have decided that the fat is serving some purpose or I would get rid of it. Instant gratification plays a big role as well I think. When we look at how far we have to go it may take months or years and that seems like a long time, an overwhelming amount of time. I am finally in charge of my eating and my activity and my water. It has been difficult. We must endure some hunger; we must exercise whether we are in the mood or not; we must drink water. Plan one day and get through that and then decide if you want to do it again the next day. If you want the weight to stay off you are going to have to make these permanent changes anyway. You have come too far to have to lose all that again. I hope you can get a handle on this. You are the only one who can do this for yourself.
ReplyDeleteDownsizers - thank you so much for the encouragement! I really appreciate your comment.
ReplyDeleteI think it goes beyond an addiction to food. There is always something specific underneath. For me, I love tasty food.. not just any food, but foods that just explode in taste and make me a contender for porn movie voice over star status.
ReplyDeleteOne thing to look at is how are you able to over eat.. where is the food coming from? I got rid of all crap in my house and also reduce things which were easy to grab and eat. Most of my meals come out of the freezer. I have never once pulled out two steamfresh meals in one evening.. Most of my other food is salads, fruit and veggies.
For me, eating every couple of hours work. I have 3 main meals and 3 snacks, morning, afternoon and evening. Apples, banana, fiber bars, boiled eggs, yogurt are my main snacks. I just cant over eat on fruit and if I do, it is better than over eating on junk.
Good luck!
Bzybee - I generally don't keep unhealthy food in the house. However, when the mood to binge strikes, sometimes I stop at a grocery store and buy things that I would never consider keeping in the house.
ReplyDeleteI'm not giving up. Today has been much better.