Yesterday was not the fresh start that I planned/needed/wanted. It started out well; a healthy breakfast followed by a healthy lunch. I had to stop by the drugstore for Tylenol on the way home from work. 3 Reese trees, a Hershey's Pot of Gold box, Mrs. Fields cookies and some chocolate milk jumped into my basket!!! How did they get there? Ok, ok, I'm not insane. They didn't jump in, I put them there. In fact, I planned doing so on the way to the store.
I ate the Reese trees, about 10 pieces of candy, and probably 3 cookies. I then threw the rest of the candy away and gave the rest of the cookies away. I suppose I should at least be proud that I didn't save it for later. Because, sure enough, even though immediately after I ate all of that junk I may have been disgusted at the thought of more chocolate, hours later I wished I still had it.
The first two Reese trees were delish. The third was still sort of good. By the time I started on the candy, cookies, and chocolate milk, it didn't even taste that good. Why did I continue?
I just can't eat as much chocolate/sugar as I could in the past. And it doesn't taste as good. Why can't I remember this BEFORE I start?? Even just a few short hours later, I'm ready to do it again. What am I getting out of this that I have a compulsive desire to repeat behavior that doesn't really seem to be rewarding?
I did eat a healthy dinner, but I didn't exercise. I didn't exercise the day before, either. I'm committed to making this a healthy day. Anyone out there joining me?
I feel your pain and wish I had some easy answer on how to get past those moment when you want to eat something you shouldn't.. but I don't.
ReplyDeleteFor me, on my journey, I am just so incredible motivated and focused that my slip up's are few and far between. I want this weight off so badly. So badly that cupcakes, pizza, burgers and chocolate are just poison to my mental well being.
Of course, it helps being in the US. I can't stand most of the chocolate here. Now, if I was home in England, it would be so much tougher to avoid all chocolate.
Today will be a good day for you!
Don't be too harsh on yourself - and just remember how far you've come.
ReplyDeleteMaybe next time just CHOSE ONE: either a chocolate OR a cookie ....
Thanks for the encouragement!!! Today has been much, much better.
ReplyDeleteLorena - oh, how I wish I could just choose one. I'm just not capable of doing so. Maybe one day I will bel. I know that there are those who would disagree with me, but I compare my lack of self control with sugar to an alcoholic's lack of will power with alcohol. Moderation just doesn't work.
thanks again for the kind words!!!!!